This blog is currently being reflected on. Will it survive? I am not quite so sure at this point. Initially, I started this blog because my heart was set on fire for the Lord from a talk I attended in 2014 by Matthew Kelly. I wanted to do something for God and this blog was my means to do it. It somehow evolved into me wanting to hone my writing skills and turn writing into a lifestyle, which is not entirely bad. However, I realize I lost my main and most important reason too quickly. My posts started to become about superficial things. My blog didn't have a direction. I was worrying about not posting a lot and wanted to write an article for the sake of being able to keep posting. Everything was all over the place.
I just attended the Student Leadership Summit run by the Fellowship of Catholic University Students. One of the speakers, Kevin Cotter, mentioned that we should go through the things in our life, hold them up and ask ourselves,
"Does this help me follow Jesus?"
Another quote that has been on my mind lately comes from Sr. Miriam James, a SOLT Sister,
"What is the fruit that will come from this?"
These are questions that I have been and will be tossing around in my mind. Do I enjoy writing? Yes. I love writing. It holds a dear place in my heart...but I don't want to write just so people can read it. There is a reason I desire this. I need to use the talents God has blessed me with, but I must keep him at the center of them. I must be willing to let him take control and use me as a vessel.
A good friend of mine, who was helping me out with my testimony on my faith journey (that I clearly need more practice on), asked me, "What is your story?" Initially, I thought it was a weird question, especially since I had already been talking about it for quite some time. So, I continued and was stopped again;
"No, those are just facts in your life. What is your story?"
My story, my story. Its so much more than a recitation of facts. If this blog is going to continue, it needs to be so much more than just a recitation of facts and events that happened in my life.
With that, More than Just a Cup of Tea will be in limbo until I decide what to do with it.
